Lonliness

The worst feeling a being could ever have is lonliness. I must admit I often drift off into my own world at times due to my lonliness. I have made myself a slave of being lonesome and have fallen victim to the dirty tricks the mind can play on one. I swallow my pride at times and eat the words I'm told, and when I'm alone is where my mind begins boggling and racing with thoughts. I feel emotions of anger, hate, sadness, guilt, and that's where depression starts to hit. My lonliness has led to my depression and I want to work it out alone. I don't need help I can do this, and that's where I'm wrong. Lonliness can push those we most adore away and can even destroy a person. I can't begin to explain how painfull it is, because of all the things that hold me down I'm forced to deal with them alone. I got myself into the mess let me get myself out! I can't I need your help I need you to pick me up from this whole so deep I feel I might never get out. No hope is left, no stregnth to keep going. I wanna give up and let it all finally control me! I'm lost, the darkness has me blinded, I need you now more than ever but I don't know how to ask you for help. So cold, afraid, and lonesome is how I felt.

Death

Cold and solem, pale and lifeless, these are some of the first things that come to mind when you hear the word Death. In the past years I've lost family and friends and eachtime one would go I would get this deeper understanding of death and with the understanding came thoughts of the dead and how would it be? That's where I remembered that if your dead your no longer here you can't come back your time on earth as we know it has come to a screeching hault and there's nothing you can do to help it. It's kind of like drowinging if you think about it, you can see your life from a blurry distance slowly drifting away. It is the afterlife that most of us think most differently of, the Catholics and pergatory, the Christians and judgement, the Hindu and reincarnation, and so many other religions and their beliefs. The bottom line is sooner or later death will catch us all and it is with in you to choose where you shall spend your eternity. I believe what we do in life echoes in eternity and part of understanding death is that it is an eternity. Eternity is forever and to think about it could drive one insane. I've thought about all these things and it kind of freaks me out, but then again I'm happy I'm alive I'm here and it's only a thought. Death really is cold and lonesome, it is dark and at the sametime has light to it. Death is not the end but the beginning of life. We all didn't just live this life here on earth for nothing. What do you think? What If you die right now? Are you afraid of death? Tell me...

Falling In Love

Some people wait their entire lives to find that special someone who completes them in ways that they can not complete themselves. Ive had the pleasure of falling in love with an amazing beautiful girl who i can say has put her magic on me and has been a blessing from the beginning. Love is a very deep feeling and a very controversial subject for most. Many of us do not even know what Love is until you have fallen it, and when you do man oh man is it one of the greatest feelings, the only other feeling that can be compared to love is Death which we will be covering later on in this blog so look out for that! The reason why death comes so close to love is because of the many feeling we get when death hits, such as a family member or friend passing away, or just the thought of death its self. When we love someone and death threatens to take that love away is where feelings of depression begin and mixed feelings of insecurity start. No one wants to be alone for many that's the only way to live because they can not TRUST a main ingredient to love and without that trust you can never truly love someone. I would love to hear your thoughts on love and there is no right or wrong opinion on this, just your thoughts and feelings. Once you have done this i will continue to touch this subject and many others...